I admit there's something lingering on my mind about the prospect, but it involves subjects we've previously committed to not bringing up in passionate moments because they're generally unsexy. Do you mind if I voice it? I don't want to taint anything for you.
All right. It's a question about my...let's call it "presentation".
There's a very natural template for a beautiful woman that resembles me — my mother. There's a good chance that if I do this, I might end up looking like her. But I can also see how that might significantly kill the mood, particularly now that I've said so out loud.
I could also make very minimal changes and look essentially like myself, but that might be disorienting for me to experience in an uncanny valley sort of way, and I know you'd rather I be comfortable.
But when you say "feel attractive" — I'm not that much of a narcissist to be hot for myself, and my desire to kill my father never had anything to do with anything Oedipal. So...would that entail me producing a result that I could say that I myself am attracted to?
Help me define the scope of this. It's a whole new landscape to explore.
I feel personally confident in asserting that there is no chance I would ever think about your mother while in bed with you, but I do understand the hesitation.
[ there's a pause, the kind where typing bubbles appear and disappear a few times before tseng's next message comes through. ]
Would it help if I told you what I tend to find attractive in female partners?
This is new ground for me, too. I'm not sure how best to express that it's you as a person that I'm most attracted to and that the shape of your physical body is of secondary importance. It also feels egotistical to suggest that the strength of my attraction to you should correspondingly be enough to make you feel attractive. But if guidance re: my broad preferences would help...
If it's any reassurance? Just like you like it when I talk a little dirty, I like it when you're visibly, overtly attracted to me. I don't need it to know you're attracted to me, obviously. But it feels good. Being hot, because you think I am.
And to be clear, what I want here is to be so hot that you get hard from the moment you lay eyes on me. Ideally so that I'll have to drop to my knees and suck you off just to get enough blood back to your brain to remember to take me to the bedroom.
That outcome feels like a near certainty regardless, but I'm always happy to facilitate you making me insane in previously unprecedented ways.
[ considering that at this point, tseng remembering to get rufus to the bedroom is anyway an exercise in luck more than coherent thought. ]
At least a little bit shorter than me. Hair shoulder length or longer for how satisfying it is to pull, but no preference on style. I suppose I would be what's colloquially called an "ass man" more than anything else, so breast size is less important.
Makeup is nice, but not a necessity. If you do choose to wear it, don't wear lipstick. I acknowledge that I'm an outlier in this regard, but I don't like how it feels, either when kissing or on my cock.
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I admit there's something lingering on my mind about the prospect, but it involves subjects we've previously committed to not bringing up in passionate moments because they're generally unsexy. Do you mind if I voice it? I don't want to taint anything for you.
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There's a very natural template for a beautiful woman that resembles me — my mother. There's a good chance that if I do this, I might end up looking like her. But I can also see how that might significantly kill the mood, particularly now that I've said so out loud.
I could also make very minimal changes and look essentially like myself, but that might be disorienting for me to experience in an uncanny valley sort of way, and I know you'd rather I be comfortable.
But when you say "feel attractive" — I'm not that much of a narcissist to be hot for myself, and my desire to kill my father never had anything to do with anything Oedipal. So...would that entail me producing a result that I could say that I myself am attracted to?
Help me define the scope of this. It's a whole new landscape to explore.
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[ there's a pause, the kind where typing bubbles appear and disappear a few times before tseng's next message comes through. ]
Would it help if I told you what I tend to find attractive in female partners?
This is new ground for me, too. I'm not sure how best to express that it's you as a person that I'm most attracted to and that the shape of your physical body is of secondary importance. It also feels egotistical to suggest that the strength of my attraction to you should correspondingly be enough to make you feel attractive. But if guidance re: my broad preferences would help...
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And to be clear, what I want here is to be so hot that you get hard from the moment you lay eyes on me. Ideally so that I'll have to drop to my knees and suck you off just to get enough blood back to your brain to remember to take me to the bedroom.
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[ considering that at this point, tseng remembering to get rufus to the bedroom is anyway an exercise in luck more than coherent thought. ]
At least a little bit shorter than me. Hair shoulder length or longer for how satisfying it is to pull, but no preference on style. I suppose I would be what's colloquially called an "ass man" more than anything else, so breast size is less important.
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What are your thoughts on makeup? I'm not doing this halfway. Consider me committed to the figurative bit.
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Regardless, now I think I have a more fleshed-out idea of what I'm going to do. I'm looking forward to seeing what you think of it.
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I'm glad. I'm looking forward to it too. Do you want to let me know when you're ready?