[Who but Tseng could make sex so satisfying, so thoroughly complete, that even the thought of orgasm goes rapidly by the wayside in favor of Rufus simply wanting this to last. Having succeeded at drawing Tseng down over him like a blanket, Rufus's fingers are free instead to weave through the drape of Tseng's hair in his own little echoed intimacy, the liberty so familiar he's almost forgotten that it once was out of reach.
Tseng tells him he's beautiful, often. Gorgeous, others. Stunning, sometimes. Rufus believes it when Tseng has him like this, believes it with even more conviction than he believes in his own destined greatness, his own capacity to bend the world to his will. He's never been beautiful like that before Tseng existed like this to look at him as he does, before Tseng made his own gaze into lenses through which Rufus could see himself, too.]
Yeah. I need you.
[It's not the frantic, desperate begging of the compulsion from before. It's not desire fueled by lust. It just, like Tseng's, feels good to say. Good to admit, in the sliver of space between their lips reserved for secrets, like a flash of an enigmatic smile beneath an elevator's golden light.]
[ although neither of them has taken the step of actually saying the words aloud, there are moments when tseng feels them acutely—like now, embroidered into the way rufus says i need you, meaning not that rufus shinra needs the head of his turks but that rufus, just rufus, needs just tseng. the entirety of tseng's life has been shaped around the question of what use he can be: how he might be forged into a weapon to be wielded by the long arm of the company, what purpose he might serve to those who own him. the meaning of his existence has always been his function.
but now, in the quiet of tseng's bedroom, rufus says i need you and it has nothing to do with what tseng can do for him, nothing to do with how tseng can be used. the thought that he might be of some value to this man beyond his function is one that nearly overwhelms him, and tseng can do nothing but give rufus another lingering, breathless kiss, some small way to express the way that those simple words touch something tender deep inside him, a place that no one else has ever been able to reach. ]
You have me, [ tseng promises, in between the kisses he presses to rufus' mouth. ] You have me, always.
[ even when they part, he stays close, his forehead pressed to rufus' and their noses brushing together, the warm wash of rufus' breath against his mouth each time their bodies move together. climax becomes an afterthought and also an inevitability; they will come, both of them, but tseng is no longer focused on it as a goal. ]
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Tseng tells him he's beautiful, often. Gorgeous, others. Stunning, sometimes. Rufus believes it when Tseng has him like this, believes it with even more conviction than he believes in his own destined greatness, his own capacity to bend the world to his will. He's never been beautiful like that before Tseng existed like this to look at him as he does, before Tseng made his own gaze into lenses through which Rufus could see himself, too.]
Yeah. I need you.
[It's not the frantic, desperate begging of the compulsion from before. It's not desire fueled by lust. It just, like Tseng's, feels good to say. Good to admit, in the sliver of space between their lips reserved for secrets, like a flash of an enigmatic smile beneath an elevator's golden light.]
I do.
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but now, in the quiet of tseng's bedroom, rufus says i need you and it has nothing to do with what tseng can do for him, nothing to do with how tseng can be used. the thought that he might be of some value to this man beyond his function is one that nearly overwhelms him, and tseng can do nothing but give rufus another lingering, breathless kiss, some small way to express the way that those simple words touch something tender deep inside him, a place that no one else has ever been able to reach. ]
You have me, [ tseng promises, in between the kisses he presses to rufus' mouth. ] You have me, always.
[ even when they part, he stays close, his forehead pressed to rufus' and their noses brushing together, the warm wash of rufus' breath against his mouth each time their bodies move together. climax becomes an afterthought and also an inevitability; they will come, both of them, but tseng is no longer focused on it as a goal. ]