[ aha. so in a way, it was—at least in that moment—less about tseng himself, and more about the man of whom sasuke was reminded. tseng's brow furrows, briefly, but it's a thoughtful expression, musing on what type of person this mysterious other must have been to have commanded sasuke's respect and made him crave approval. ]
I understand what you mean, I think. [ it doesn't bother tseng, the revelation. if anything, it just helps him understand sasuke a bit better, a small window of vulnerability through which tseng has been allowed a glimpse. ] Not that you were looking at me and thinking of him—but that those strong emotions you feel towards him were superimposed onto what you feel towards me. Something like that?
[ tseng knows that what sasuke feels towards him is likely neither as potent nor as complicated as what he feels, or felt, toward that person in his past, but he isn't fool enough to think that sasuke feels nothing for tseng, and he can imagine that under the influence of his suit, the mingling of those sets of emotions would have been powerful. ]
If I don't like something, I won't put up with it for your sake. But I do want to clarify one thing. [ a glance at sasuke, and tseng's expression softens, warming through. ] There may be things that don't turn me on on their own, but that I would gladly do if they turn you on. Like you said, half of my enjoyment is in the service of my partner's. I consider that different than disliking something. Does that make sense?
[ look at them, communicating. for better or worse, tseng values sasuke deeply; communication like this doesn't come naturally to him, but for sasuke's sake he wants to try. ]
There was nothing I didn't like. [ it is of note, to tseng, that sasuke asks first about the things he didn't like, before asking about what he did like. perhaps for that reason, tseng decides to be... more forthright than he might be otherwise. ] You were captivating. I am honestly not sure I've gotten that hard that fast before.
[ oddly, that makes him a little shy to admit, so tseng glances back down at his teacup and then up to sasuke again. ]
I do have two things I'd like to talk to you about in more detail, but—first, I'd like to know if there was anything you particularly liked, or anything you didn't, too.
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I understand what you mean, I think. [ it doesn't bother tseng, the revelation. if anything, it just helps him understand sasuke a bit better, a small window of vulnerability through which tseng has been allowed a glimpse. ] Not that you were looking at me and thinking of him—but that those strong emotions you feel towards him were superimposed onto what you feel towards me. Something like that?
[ tseng knows that what sasuke feels towards him is likely neither as potent nor as complicated as what he feels, or felt, toward that person in his past, but he isn't fool enough to think that sasuke feels nothing for tseng, and he can imagine that under the influence of his suit, the mingling of those sets of emotions would have been powerful. ]
If I don't like something, I won't put up with it for your sake. But I do want to clarify one thing. [ a glance at sasuke, and tseng's expression softens, warming through. ] There may be things that don't turn me on on their own, but that I would gladly do if they turn you on. Like you said, half of my enjoyment is in the service of my partner's. I consider that different than disliking something. Does that make sense?
[ look at them, communicating. for better or worse, tseng values sasuke deeply; communication like this doesn't come naturally to him, but for sasuke's sake he wants to try. ]
There was nothing I didn't like. [ it is of note, to tseng, that sasuke asks first about the things he didn't like, before asking about what he did like. perhaps for that reason, tseng decides to be... more forthright than he might be otherwise. ] You were captivating. I am honestly not sure I've gotten that hard that fast before.
[ oddly, that makes him a little shy to admit, so tseng glances back down at his teacup and then up to sasuke again. ]
I do have two things I'd like to talk to you about in more detail, but—first, I'd like to know if there was anything you particularly liked, or anything you didn't, too.